We have an angel in heaven. He was our first born. It all began back in September 2005. We were so excited to find out that we were expecting. Was it a boy or a girl? Would he or she look more like one of us or the other. We had so much hope for the future of this baby. That hope was crushed not to long after finding out we were pregnant.
It was the end of November and we decided to go to a geneticist. Since a family member is a Cytogeneticist, we were familiar with disorders, but never thought that it would happen to us. We got tested and the sono looked great. So far so good. But that didn’t last long either. My blood work came back with odds that were too great to give us any confidence. An amnio later and we found out on a cold December morning our baby had Trisomy 18, also known as Edward’s Syndrome. A deadly chromosome disorder. We were devastated. Numb was all we felt.
We were off to speak to the doctor about our baby’s future. Once we heard the options, we felt even more at a loss. How can our baby be so sick? Well, once it came down to it, we decided that God’s way was the only way. Christian’s life was in God’s hands. I loved him and felt him everyday for 5 more months. I grew and he grew. We loved each other and I kept talking to him and telling him that. His daddy would always kiss him before he left for work. For 5 more months we cherished everything about this pregnancy. The end was going to come.
On April 26, 2006, I awoke in the middle of the night to a feeling of coldness all over me. I didn’t realize that he had passed until the doctor’s appointment the next day. Deep down, I knew something had happened. So once we heard the silence that was replacing the ever so present heartbeat, we had come to the end. Our baby’s life was now up in Heaven with the Lord. He is out of pain and went in peace. I was induced on April 28th. It was very fast and we held our precious Christian for hours. It was a beautiful ending to a beautiful pregnancy. We have no regrets and are able to look toward the future knowing our baby is watching over us. We miss him and look forward to the day we can see him again and be with him for eternity.
Today we have been blessed with 2 more precious children. Well never know what it would have been like to have our Christian here with us, but we will continue to keep his memory alive in our family forever and ever.